Breaking Point
Last Saturday Holding the dead puppy in my hands released all the emotions that had been building up for two and a half weeks and it all came crashing down on me: I had not slept well since the cyclone and I was exhausted . Stress and mental trauma from the cyclone and the ensuing flooding. A wet house because of leaks. The bathroom walls started to mold. Confrontation with a worker who was making his 11 year old niece do all his physical work that I was paying him to do. Then, no water in my house. My cistern was completely dry. To name just a few of the problems and stressors I was facing. And now my dog had puppies and one of them was already dead. I started crying. I fled to my bedroom, hugged my knees tightly, and just wept, repeating over and over what I hadn't been able to admit for two and a half weeks: " I'm not okay, I'm not okay. " I knew I needed to talk to someone. I tried calling my leaders wife. No answer. I tried callin...